It is not any particular manner of treatment, Komaeda. They are scarcely aware that you exist. As you've said, they have no need for you. It will always, without fail, be someone else. Please refrain from squandering your valuable time on such frivolities -- although I believe our ages to be similar, the life of a human is still rather short, isn't it? What you do is meaningless, so it follows naturally that you are granted the luxury of behaving selfishly.